I am NOT perfect!

I'd like to take a few minutes to share my heart with you.  I am NOT perfect...and this might shock you......neither are you.  AND THAT'S OK!!!  

This is a current picture of my couch.  If I'm being completely honest , it usually looks like this.  I could give you  more picture of the imperfections in my cleaning abilities, however that's not what this post is about.  This post is about learning to live a life smothered in grace and overflowing with peace.  Please know that chaos makes me absolutely crazy.  I can't really think or function in chaos.   I am a perfectionist, but I'm not very good at it😱.  For years this has been a source of great discouragement for me.  I always feel just a tad bit inadequate as I measure myself against other women God placed in my life.  I take their best attributes and make a super woman that I measure myself against.  Here, let me show ya how this works......

My sister Alisha is amazing at organization and if you ever have the pleasure of being a guest in her home she will make you feel like royalty

My sister Cammie is the kindest, most gentle person I know.  If you have the blessing of knowing her, you feel loved and completely wanted.

My sister Amy, can just roll with the flow!  Nothing and I mean nothing ruffles her feathers!

My sister Lori sees beauty and joy in all things.  She is quick to laugh and you must join her....she just pulls you in!

My sister Amanda is amazing at making her home beautiful and welcoming.  She's the person who can take blue, orange, and green objects and make a room fit for a magazine cover.  She is a great problem solver...she can just see a clear solution.

My sister Kara is a very determined lady.  She is strong and confident.  She sees what she wants and makes it happen.

My other sister Amanda is so incredible thoughtful!  She is generous and loving and so sweet, she is great at making others in her life feel loved.

NOW THESE ARE JUST A FEW LADIES IN MY LIFE and I didn't ask any if them before I included them ....but they have to forgive me because they're family and stuck with me😁

I have seen each of these precious ladies in very difficult circumstances.  I have seen them not at their best and I still completely believe I am better and blessed for having them in my life.  Here's something I have come to realize.  I would NEVER focus on or share things about my sisters that would caused you to think poorly of them.  I know they are not perfect... And so do they.  They don't need me to point out their flaws.  They see them clearly I'm sure.   

So back to how I build my super woman model.  I take all these true things about my sisters and make a list of my short comings and the comparing begins....

I'm not very organized...like Alisha,  I focus of task instead of people too often...Cammie doesn't ,  I often get upset when things get hard...not like Amy,  I let the mess destract me from the beauty...unlike Lori, my home is usually a mess...not like Amanda, I am rarely focused...unlike Kara, I forget birthdays and anniversaries...not like Amanda.  Compared to my super model I never measure up!  I fall short each time!  I allow the enemy to convince me that I am not enough, and never will be.

Soooooooooo, I feel defeated and discouraged because of this way of thinking.  So I've made a decision, I'm not keeping my imperfection secret anymore.

I DONT HAVE IT ALL TOGETHER, I AM A MESS SOMETIMES, MY HOME IS OFTEN LESS THAN SPOTLESS, AND I'M FORGETFUL!

BUT.....

IM ALSO A MOM OF FOUR SWEET BLESSINGS, A WIFE TO ONE TERRIFIC GUY,   A LOVED SISTER, DAUGHTER, COUSIN AND FRIEND, I AM A TEACHER, AND A DAUGHTER OF the KING OF kings AND LORD OF lords.

And.....I believe being real and transparent is a blessing to those I have in my life.